This is Ashiah having just made blueberry pancakes with Mummy and then ate said pancakes and rubbed the maple syrup throughout her hair. Good thing she's cute.
It's the first time Greg has been away for a long period in a few months now. Usually I'm rushing about madly trying to get the to do list done but today it is gray and rainy and potential playmates were all sick so Ashiah and I stayed in. There was a definite absence in the cabin today despite Ashiah and I sharing a few laughs and lots of playtime.
I remember when I was pregnant and Greg would go away and I would really miss him. I would busy myself to not dwell on it. But now I have a little girl who misses her Daddy and reminds me every hour on the hour and sometimes for several minutes at a time.
As she sat across from me at the dinner table in a 'big person chair' she was busying herself and suddenly looked up at me and said "Dada?" I said "Yes, Dada is away right now" and she kept asking "Dada?" So I said "Dada is in the car" to which she repeated "Dada is in the car?" "Yes he is pumpkin" I answered, astonished that she had repeated verbatim. She then repeated "Dada/car" about 20 times and finally paused and looked down and I thought to myself "thank God because she's making me miss him too." And then she looked up at me again, with her beautiful blue eyes, so earnest and said "Dada?" And I felt the tears swell up and seep down my cheeks. "Yes love, Dada is in the car, far away, but he'll be back soon."
I text'ed Dada who happened to be on a beach in Point Reyes resting up after traveling 3 cities in 3 days and he immediately called home and baby and Mama were very happy to hear his voice. Baby and Mama then spent the rest of the evening playing inside a cardboard house (Ashiah sized of course) and baby and Mama felt peaceful having touched base with the third leg of our tripod.
